April 2026
I have sat down to write things here 6 times over the last few years. And I haven't published any of it because…I just haven't finished my thoughts in writing.
The last time I sat down to attempt to share something in writing was November 2025. It is still sitting in my drafts. It was the wintery holiday season of course - where all of the feelings really smack me in the face. I likely stopped writing because it sounded more like whining to me. Reading my own writing is like listening to myself on a phone call or audio recording. I don’t necessarily enjoy it. I would rather just write and publish and not look back. The End.
I opened up my Squarespace account tonight because I started wondering…Does anyone actually look at this page still? I know that I, personally, have avoided it on and off, because sometimes I just can't handle the thoughts that come with it. But then, whoa, I looked at some viewing stats and there are still views from multiple states and countries just within the last few days.
Ramble, ramble, ramble…I know.
Here is what I am getting at…
I stopped writing for a while, and then it kind of just drug out to me never writing anything, ever. I don’t plan on making this a weekly thing, or a monthly thing, or some kind of perfectly scheduled thing to get a bunch of followers. That is too much work, and I have a family - both on Earth and in Heaven - who need my attention.
But there are a few other ladies I follow, who have helped me feel like a (semi) normal person. Just by sharing feelings that I can relate to, or sharing an experience that makes the perpetual confusion a little bit less lonely. And I hope I can do that for someone too.
So here is a note to any of you that may need this today…
It is almost 6 years later and here I am, sitting on my couch, thinking about Franklin and staring at his urn. Thinking about the “what-ifs”, while also being grateful for my two beautiful boys, who are trying to grow up too fast for my liking.
And I am ok. A lot of days, I am actually way better than ok.
You will be ok too. And not just because “you are so strong” 🙄, but because you are a human and we adapt to survive.
🐸 Happy Spring!
